Five thousand, six hundred and sixty-eight
How old is the oldest person you’ve had sexual relations with?
Thirty.
How often do you have to use a flashlight?
I use the flashlight on my phone several times a month.
Do you even have a home phone anymore?
Nope.
Best compliment you’ve ever received?
I'm not sure.
Describe your body to me. Add as much / little detail as you want.
I would prefer not to. My body is seldom a thing I like to think about.
Do you like the feeling of being nervous? Does it give you an adrenaline rush or does it just make you feel really sick?
No! I loathe being anxious. I suffer from chronic panic disorder, and being anxious can trigger a panic attack with ease.
Do you ever feel embarrassed for others?
Irregularly, but it does happen.
How are you feeling?
I'm okay. Today has been stressful, in some aspects. We made plans for dinner at Steak and Shake with Jenn and Brooke. When we went to leave, the car's battery was dead. No idea what the cause was, but I informed Jenn and she came over to help jumpstart the car. Success. We left, had a great time eating, up until two of our shakes came back a melted consistency. Mine and Jenn's. We sent them back, and they were better. An improvement, but not perfect. We left and headed to Target. Car was fine. Upon leaving Target, however, the battery was dead yet again. Adam reluctantly called Jenn and she came out to save us again. We had to grab some groceries, so afterward we went over to Walmart. Adam had to stay in the car to keep it running so we didn't risk the battery going out again. Emily wanted to go in with me, which I was dreading from the beginning, but said okay. When I was lifting a thing of litter, which was a tad heavy for me, Emily moved the cart right as I was lowering the litter into it. In doing so, she caused me to slam the litter container into my wrist, catching it between the container and the cart. It's now a lovely shade of blue and red. After shopping, we went to pick up Kyle so he wouldn't have to call an Uber [he hasn't been walking as he usually does due to getting over a cold]. Somehow, after I opened my car door to wave Kyle over, I shut my foot in the door. I don't know what the hell is going on with this day, but I keep reflecting on decisions I made yesterday, which I obsessively worried about all night, thinking, as much as it's unlikely, because my actions don't determine these things. Logically, I know this. I took my laptop downstairs last night, in order to finish some writing edits on my recliner. This isn't something I often do. In fact, it's something I had never done before. I don't always bode well with new situations, new decisions, on my part, because it triggers my obsessive compulsive disorder and I think if I do this, something bad might happen. There is no logic in this. I know it. I always know it. But that doesn't stop these damn intrusive thoughts from slipping in. Bah. Anyway ... Steak and Shake was good, I have finished the rough draft of Salt and Cinders and am pleased with it. So that's something.
What are you thinking?
I had been thinking about the name I chose for a particular important character in this book. I'd discovered that it is a feminine name, however the character is male, so I worried that might be an issue. I asked Adam and Sunflower their opinion, and both said to go with it regardless. Which works, because I like the name a lot. I went through three names for him in total and finally liked one, so I would have hated to need to change it again.
I had been thinking about the name I chose for a particular important character in this book. I'd discovered that it is a feminine name, however the character is male, so I worried that might be an issue. I asked Adam and Sunflower their opinion, and both said to go with it regardless. Which works, because I like the name a lot. I went through three names for him in total and finally liked one, so I would have hated to need to change it again.
Could you have sex with the last person you text messaged?
I could, and I have.
Have you been upset the past few days?
Yes.
Have you ever fallen asleep in school?
No.
Ever sat in someone’s lap because there were no more seats in a vehicle?
Yes. I remember sitting on my aunt's lap in Oregon. We were going to a Chinese restaurant, and there was no room otherwise. It was uncomfortable and awkward. I kept focusing on the fact that I was without a seatbelt.
Do you want a tattoo?
Sometimes I think that I would like one, other times I think otherwise. Mostly because I don't want to spend the money to get one.
Do you think you will kiss someone tomorrow?
Mhm.
How late did you stay up last night and why?
I was up until almost three. That seems to be my new bedtime, ha.
Were you single on Valentine’s Day?
No.
How are you feeling now?
The same as I was the last time the survey asked.
Do you like to go hiking?
I do!
Can you make a paper airplane?
Yes.
Do you enjoy crime shows? Which one is your favorite?
I enjoyed Psych and Monk, but otherwise, no.
Who was the last person you never expected to hurt you, but did?
Sterling, I guess.
If you could wake up next to anyone for the rest of your life, who would it be? Why?
Adam.
Is there something emotional you think you will never get over?
Yes.
Is a relationship worth the amount of work required to maintain it?
Absolutely.
Do you have any birthmarks? If so, where?
I have one on my left arm and one on my butt.
Are you attracted to people with tattoos?
No.
Would you date an 18 year old at the age you are now?
No.
What were you doing last night at midnight?
Working.
Do you know how it feels to be cheated on?
Yes.
If you were born in the opposite gender, what would your name be?
Zachary Arynn / Sebastian.
Are you easy to get along with?
I guess so.